Kaitlyn the Bachelorette — Week 8

  • Ben H is a sweetheart. He is genuine. I don’t really like them together, but I like him ok.
  • Wait. I wrote that before Ben said that he fears that he’s unlovable. What is that about? Thumbs down.
  • I felt so bad for Joe when he told Kaitlyn he was in love with her. Sad. I think guys like Joe are the guys I feel the worst for. The ones that think they have a chance but totally don’t.
  • I love that Sean won’t even say “Nick” he calls him “the other guy”. Ha! I’m with you Sean, Nick is the worst.
  • I can’t decide how I feel about Sean and Kaitlyn. I can’t tell if he is really into her and is just reserved about how he shows affection, or if he only thinks he is into her because of the weird Bachelor environment he’s in.
  • Pink is not Sean’s color.
  • I understand Sean being upset, but he has to know it was just a matter of time. It either happened last week or it was going to happen in the fantasy suite.
  • I respect Sean’s initial reaction to Kaitlyn’s news! He is visibly upset, but he doesn’t act on his emotion. He is calm enough to realize he needs to take a beat to think things through before he decides how he feels and how he will respond to Kaitlyn. This is a positive quality in a spouse. I hope Kaitlyn realizes that.
  • I’m so mad that Nick keeps saying how he’s had less than half the time with Kaitlyn than the other guys have had. UM???? YOU SPENT THE NIGHT WITH HER. That pretty much trumps all the practically meaningless minutes that Ben H has had with her.
  • Kaitlyn wants Sean to be mad! He gives the best possible response and she keeps a stale look on her face like she really expected/wanted fireworks. Was she trying to push him away?
  • Can I say one more time that Nick is the worst? He loves to hear himself talk and it’s always stupid. He’s stupid. I feel like he is downplaying their relationship in order to be bros with the other guys. “All you guys have had so much more time than I have. I don’t feel confident at all. I’m so nervous.” Stop. Just act normal.
  • Kaitlyn’s poker face is too good. When she’s talking to the guys I want her to have some emotion and feeling on her face.
  • Despite the fact that Ben would make a way better husband than Jared, I’m surprised that Ben stayed over Jared. She’s been so hot for Jared from the very beginning, and Bachelorettes have a history of going on feeling rather than logic. But regardless, congrats to Jared for staying this long! You’d think that beard would have gotten him sent home weeks ago!
  • Did anyone else catch that giant tub of protein powder on Sean’s nightstand?
  • Nick is a master at this game. I feel like he’s tricking Kaitlyn and doing a fantastic job. He’s in it to win in. I don’t believe anything he says.
  • Sean should have left Nick alone. It was pretty uncool of him to confront Nick in his hotel room. What is the point? Maybe he’s had too much protein powder. He needs to chill.
  • I just realized I’ve said that Sean needs to chill like 10 times this season. It’s weird that he can get so riled up about things, but in the moment when you’d think he’d come unglued (when Kaitlyn confessed) he was totally calm. What is that about??
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Kaitlyn the Bachelorette — Week 6 & 7

WEEK 6

  • Ian is a tool. His display was embarrassing and stupid. He was just trying to be mean. It was like watching a kid on the playground who got picked last and decides to take the ball and go home. What a sore loser.
  • Guys. Kaitlyn is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Chris is such a dork.
  • Nick is the worst. I can’t stand him at all. I think the issue is that he’s a total dork but he thinks he’s super cool. If you’re a dork, be a dork. You’re not fooling anyone. Except maybe Kaitlyn???
  • The whole Nick/Kaitlyn thing was awesome and frustrating. I would have preferred her to have zero regret and zero awkwardness about it. Own it! I was enjoying that she was just going with what she wanted to do, despite the “rules” of the game. But then the next morning she was crying about how it was a huge mistake. Uncool Kaitlyn! If there is any ounce of you that will regret it, I judge you for going through with it. Are you an out of control teenager who can’t understand consequences? Were you too distracted by his gross hair and too-tight pants to think about how you’d feel in the morning?
  • Shawn is too serious for Kaitlyn. He can’t even enjoy the group date. He’s just standing around awkwardly, looking like he wants to throw up.
  • Shawn showing pics of his family was genius. Kaitlyn loved it. Seriously so smart.
  • The best part of this episode was THE CRANBERRIES. Omg how hilarious was that? I’m fairly certain that Jared is too young to even know who they are. They were not nearly as excited as they should have been about that. (crying laughing face emoji!)

WEEK 7

  • Whoa. Have we ever seen a contestant ask straight up if the Bachelor/Bachelorette if they were in love with them? I like it! Go Shawn!
  • Kaitlyn didn’t make any attempt to keep him. I wanted her to say, “Look, there are nine other guys here. I have to be totally fair to each of them, because that is what is fair to me and to you. Let the process happen. Don’t go, just hold out and let’s make it work.” But instead she said, “You’ll just have to decide if you can do this” and gave him the stink eye and if she was daring him to go.
  • She keeps going back and forth on what she’s saying. Nick is a mistake, but he wasn’t, but he was, but he wasn’t. Rolling my eyes. She should have told Shawn right then what happened between her and Nick. It’s always best to get ahead of a situation like this. It’s never a good idea to keep secrets!
  • Joe is a sweet guy, but come on. I felt bad when he told Kaitlyn he was falling in love with him. As much as I can’t picture Kaitlyn and Joe together, I really, really can’t see her with JJ. I’m glad he went home. But Joe is on the chopping block next week.
  • It drives me completely crazy that they never eat the food. I had a freaking waffle for dinner, and they are letting all their delicious food go to waste. It kills me.
  • I am SO tired of hearing Shawn whine! Stop! He needs to chill out and act like a man. Although, to be fair, I guess that is exactly how a man would act. Jealous and mad seeing their girl kiss other guys.
  • Your girlfriend opens her door in tears and you don’t even attempt to console her??? Yikes. Shawn must be mad. Or insensitive.
  • The second couch conversation was much better than the first. I’m glad Kaitlyn told him to chill and to just let the process happen. Good. Can we move on now?
  • Shawn’s royal blue jacket with black lapels is ugly.
  • Peter thinks all the guys need a Midol. Agree.
  • Nick is such a tool! Seriously can’t stand him at all. Can anyone? Does he have any fans??? Ug I can barely watch him. I wanted to punch him when he started crying. That was an act, right? Even Kaitlyn wasn’t buying it. Oh wait, then she says she did buy it. I don’t buy that she bought it.
  • Oh wow. Shawn and Kaitlyn’s third conversation. Wow. Let’s recap their conversations this episode:
    • One: He thought he had the upper hand, he wanted validation, he didn’t get it and left her room confused at why a woman wouldn’t be begging him to stay. He issues an empty threat of leaving.
    • Two: He comes crawling back the next night to say he still likes her and wants to stay. He gets a pep talk from her, but no real validation. He finally realizes he does not have the upper hand, Kaitlyn does. He panics.
    • Three: Kaitlyn is over it and tells him to cool his jets or he’s outta here. He looks at her with desperation, pleading with her to reconsider with his eyes (which she should because Ryan Gosling).
  • I’m shocked that Chris stayed over Ben and Tanner! Chris belongs with like Snow White or Belle or something.
  • Kaitlyn needs to give Jared an ultimatum: shave the beard or go home.
  • Kaitlyn and Jared are pals. They have a nice connection and it’s fun to watch them enjoy each other. There is no way they would ever end up married, but they’re cute and fun.
  • I like the idea of them having fantasy suite dates prior to the family dates. I always feel bad that they meet so many families. It doesn’t seem fair to their mothers.
  • SHUT UP NICK.
  • Watching Chris and Kaitlyn kiss is like watching a super creepy uncle his his niece. Just weird and awkward. Zero passion, just weirdness. And he can’t stop looking at her. She doesn’t need your constant eye contact! Stop looking at her!
  • Cupcake’s tears tell us all we need to know about him.
  • Let’s hope next week we see more of Ben H, less of Nick, and that Shawn can act like a man again.
  • Wait. Stop. Hold the phones. Jared can’t drive a stick. No. No. No. I can’t handle this information.
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Kaitlyn The Bachelorette — Week 5

  • Nick is so stupid, but I think all the attacking questions were a bit much when he first walked in the hotel room. If he’s fake and there for the wrong reasons, his true colors will come out and then they can all move on. Until then, just be polite, or at the very least ignore him. Sounds they are all just jealous and jealously doesn’t look good on anyone. I think part of the problem is that they are all cooped up in a hotel room and have nothing to think about but drama. I hope when they watch this all back they realize they are acting like a bunch of whiny babies.
  • Peter says: “Shawn sure is sensitive. And not in a good way.” Amen.
  • I want to say again that I HATE HATE HATE the rose ceremony at the beginning of the episode instead of the end. I hope abc gets enough hate to change it back for next season.
  • Ben H: Right off the bat I love this guy because of the way he taught those little kids about the birds and the bees last week. He’s a sweet guy, but I’m not sure he’s the guy for Kaitlyn. He is a little too puppy dog for her.
  • Side note: The singer is named Dale. I love that name and really want to name the baby Dale (boy or girl, but more for a girl). Peter isn’t into it. If you see him, mention how much you like the name.
  • Another performing date? Aren’t we over that yet? Let’s switch it up.
  • Peter says he hasn’t liked a bachelorette in a long time but he really likes Kaitlyn. I agree, she’s pretty good.
  • They toasted to “tight pants”. Agree.
  • Idaho boy Joshua called Kaitlyn a barber. This is an Idaho boy move.
  • Nick and Kaitlyn need to stop kissing. Please, please stop.
  • Kaitlyn seems like a no drama girl, but she does have a lot of drama. It seems like every episode has a situation.
  • Oh no! Poor Joshua! It’s true that all the guys were throwing him under the bus, but he asked for it. Speaking for others is always a bad idea.
  • It was nice of Shawn to speak up for Josh. Shawn seems like a stand up guy. I like him.
  • WHOA! Shawn is falling in love with Kaitlyn already?! And she feels the same way! I think he could win as long as he doesn’t continue to act like a whiny baby. I think if they end up together she would wear the pants and he would be the strong silent provider type.
  • “I don’t understand why Kaitlyn wouldn’t want a Princeton graduate, former model that defied death and has been around the world a couple of times.” Um…it’s because you say things like that. Douche. This is a classic example of someone who knows he’s going home and he wants to beat her to the punch to save an ounce of his pride. What a loser.
  • Obvi I have my DVR set the the Bachelor Celebrity Family Feud.
  • Shawn is a real man and I think he could be a great husband, but her heat with Jared is pretty obvious. Jared just seems so young. I can’t picture them together at all.
  • So wait, does Ian really think he has a shot at being the next bachelor? For real? Is that just something to say, or is he actually campaigning?
  • What the heck was that conversation between Kaitlyn and Ian? What was his goal? Just to hurt her feelings and be mean? I don’t understand what outcome he was looking for.
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Kaitlyn the Bachelorette — Week 4

  • Clint: I don’t have a lot to say about this. Obvi he was trying to get his face on the cover of People magazine as the villain of the season and trying to get on Bachelor Pad. I don’t really care about him or his lies or his game.
  • JJ and Clint are such close talkers it’s uncomfortable. Their confrontation was so weird. And they crying? Weird. But the slap! Ha! Possibly one of the best moments in Bach history.
  • I can’t stand when contestants get mad about a new person coming in. Shawn’s reaction was particularly annoying. He’s questioning their relationship because she is obviously not confident enough in what they have and is searching for more elsewhere??? Shawn, you’re an idiot. She’s dating 10+ other people. It’s not just you and her. I think the correct response is, “Ok! Can’t wait to meet him!” Justin’s response was the best, “The more the merrier!”
  • I went back in my blog to find out what I thought about Nick from Andi’s season. I didn’t blog about the whole season (that was when I had my miscarriage and generally had a lot going on that summer), so I can’t remember what I thought about him at the time. But the fact that I barely remember anything about him says something, right?
  • How awesome was it to see crazy Ashley S act normal?! Love it. We need to see this girl on Bachelor Pad.
  • Nick and Kaitlyn kissing is gross. Nick is gross. Peter pointed out that he looks just like the nerd on Empire Records. Ha!
  • The guys hanging around their hotel in lounge wear is always so sexy. They all look so smokin’ in plain tshirts and sweats.
  • ABC is really trying to milk the Nick drama. It’s not that dramatic. Move on. I’m annoyed that this entire episode was about this.
  • I’m really digging Idaho welder boy! He’s cute.
  • Peter says he can’t tell if Ian is a really nice guy or a douche bag. I agree.
  • I thought Chris was pretty cool until tonight. He’s a little too much for me. When he wanted to be silent and take in the moment I wanted to punch him. I think Kaitlyn did too.
  • I can’t even tell you how mad I am at abc for the rose ceremony situation. So. Freaking. Stupid. I hate them for this.
  • Overall, I didn’t like this episode at all. Nothing happened. If this is all that abc has to offer us for this season I’m really disappointed.
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IVF #2

As soon as I finished my first IVF cycle, I was dreading starting over and doing it all again. I wish I could have taken a few months off but Peter had just accepted his new job, meaning an insurance change, and I needed to get one last IVF cycle in with our current insurance. You have to wait two cycles after a failed IVF in order to try again. Remember how I started my period FOUR DAYS after my first transfer? Turns out that was actually a huge blessing. If I hadn’t started so soon I wouldn’t have had time to get my next IVF cycle in with my old insurance. I finished this IVF cycle two days before my insurance ran out. Lucky, lucky me!

A frozen IVF cycle is much easier than a fresh cycle. The fresh cycle includes ovarian stimulation, an egg retrieval, and an embryo transfer. A frozen cycle is just a process of preparing your uterus for embryos (with medication) and then transferring them to your uterus. Easy!

  1. Feb 9-March 28: Bromocriptine. This is my brain tumor medicine, I always take it (unless I’m pregnant or nursing).
  2. Feb 9-March 18 : Acupuncture. I did acupuncture twice a week which ended up being about 10 times. Each appointment was two hours, so this was a pretty big time commitment. Studies show that fertility patients that are doing acupuncture are more likely to end up pregnant. This could be because:
    1. Acupuncture works
    2. The placebo effect
    3. It is relaxing and relaxation is very important for fertility treatments
    4. By the time you are finally willing to throw acupuncture into the mix (it’s expensive and time consuming) you’ve been doing fertility for a really, really long time and eventually fertility treatments work (in most cases).
  3. Feb 10-Feb 19: Provera. This is a drug (a pill) that forces your body to have a period. Since my cycles are irregular, the doctor always have to induce.
  4. Feb 18: Endometrial Biopsy. This is a procedure that sort of “roughs up” your endometrium lining. It can increase the chances of embryos implanting. They stick a thin catheter into your uterus and scratch it up a bit. It’s quick, but when an foreign object is placed in your uterus your uterus contracts. My doctor told me it would feel like I was in labor, but it would be over quickly. I was dreading it! Turns out it was uncomfortable, but not nearly as bad as labor. This article describes the procedure.
  5. Feb 25: Ultrasound. This was just to check out my uterus and make sure it looked ready to start medication. I had one small cyst, but nothing major and I was ready to start meds.
  6. Feb 26-March 12: Oral Estradiol. Two small pills a day.
  7. Feb 26-May 18: Estradiol patch. I wore a sticky patch on my backside. I changed the patch every three days.
  8. March 12: Ultrasound. This was to check and make sure my lining looked thick enough for my little frozen embryos to implant. It needed to be at least 7 mm, mine was 12 mm. Yay! The doctor and nurse were both raving about how beautiful it looked. We set my transfer date for the 18th.
  9. March 13-May 18: Prometrium. This is a progesterone pill that I took vaginally in the morning and orally in the evening.
  10. March 13-May 18: Crinone. This is another form of progesterone. It’s a vaginal gel. This stuff was super annoying.
  11. March 13-April 16: Baby aspirin. No idea why.
  12. March 13-March 19: Medrol. This was a pill I took twice a day. It tasted like poison and made sick to my stomach.
  13. March 13-19: Doxycycline. Another twice a day pill. No idea why.
  14. March 17: Mom arrived!
  15. March 18: Transfer day! While my mom took care of Henry I slept in, got a massage, went out to lunch alone, got a diet coke, got my eyebrows done, and wandered around Target. The goal was to be as zen as possible. It worked. I was very relaxed and calm going into the procedure. My transfer was at 3pm. We dropped Henry off at my friend’s house and my mom and I went to the clinic. The doctor transferred two embryos into my uterus. They were 4BC and 5BB, which is pretty good. I stayed on my back on the table for about 30 minutes. On our way home we stopped at CFA for cookies and frozen lemonade. I spent the rest of the day in bed. I did nothing but watch tv. Nothing!
  16. March 23: Positive home pregnancy test! This was 4.5 days after my transfer. While this was exciting, it wasn’t a sure thing yet. IVF patients have false positives or chemical pregnancies pretty frequently, so we didn’t get our hopes up yet. I took another test later that afternoon (different brand), and it was negative.
  17. March 24: Positive home pregnancy test! You didn’t think I would only take one test, did you?
  18. March 25: Positive home pregnancy test! At this point I was thinking that after three (ok, ok, FIVE) positive home pregnancy tests it really could be true.
  19. March 28: Positive blood test! HCG level was 329.
  20. March 30: Positive blood test! HCG level was 946. Once you have a positive test they bring you back two days later to make sure your levels have increased at the appropriate level. My levels indicated a viable pregnancy!
  21. April 8: Ultrasound. This ultrasound is to verify that the fetus is in my uterus and not ectopic and to see how many babies you’re having. They saw one little baby right where he needed to be. Also, we were super lucky to be able to see a tiny little flicker of a heartbeat! It is early for that, so it was an unexpected surprise.
  22. April 12: Threw up for the first time! There was never a person more grateful to be puking!
  23. April 15: Ultrasound. This was to verify a healthy heartbeat, and my baby’s was 120 BPM. Yay! At this point I graduated from the fertility doctor to a regular OB.
  24. April 30: First OB appointment.
  25. May 4: Ultrasound. Heartbeat was 169 BPM (that’s good!) and Baby was waving his arms all around. So adorable to see something the size of a grape waving it’s arms.
  26. May 18: DONE! I finished all my meds (prometrium, crinone, estradiol) and become a normal pregnant person!

My due date is December 3 and we couldn’t be happier.

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Kaitlyn The Bachelorette — Week 3

  • I had Kupah winning my bracket. Oops. What kind of a person has a reaction like that? Yikes! Red flag!
  • JJ’s tattoo doesn’t match his personality.
  • The sumo date was pretty cute. Awkward, but funny. We laughed out loud basically the whole time. I’m sure it would not have been ok had it been women with their privates hanging out.
  • If Tony cut his hair, he would be good looking. Why in the world does any man think that is a good look? It’s terrible.
  • Tony sees the world through the eyes of a child, has the heart of a warrior and the soul of a gypsy. I love this guy.
  • Tony clearly has severe anger issues and he has learned to manage his issues with his peace and love attitude. Good for him for finding a lifestyle that helps him suppress his crazy. BUT as soon as he is in a stressful situation his natural crazy comes out. Good for him for trying, but he’s not quite there yet. He needs more therapy. He’s unstable.
  • Has Clint never seen the show? I don’t think so.
  • Ben Z. was trying really hard to act sensitive but it was pretty stupid. Kaitlyn was acting ridiculous and Ben was like, “Um…ok girl. Relax.” I’m sure he was very pleased to be grabbing her butt the entire time. Overall that was a pretty stupid date. But thank goodness they conquered their fears together.
  • Ben Z. definitely told the crying story so he can pull tears out later down the line and score major points. “Kaitlyn, my mom dying didn’t make me cry, but you did!” Cringe.
  • Sex ed was pretty cute to watch.
  • I can not stand when boys play the guitar. Can’t stand it.
  • Front runners: Ben H, Ben Z, Jared, Shawn (Ryan Gosling)
  • I really like the Idaho welder, Joshua. He seems so sweet and genuine. Not sure how long he’ll last, but I hope he stays for awhile.
  • We watched the scene of JJ slapping himself in the face multiple times. Hilarious.
  • Ok abc, it’s totally uncool to skip the rose ceremony at the end. UNCOOL.
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Kaitlyn The Bachelorette — Week 2

  • Britt was wearing her shoes on her hotel bed and on the sofa. Even if your in a hotel, how can you stomach putting your shoes on upholstery? Disgusting. Do any of you think that Brady and Britt were actually into each other? It was just right place right time, right???
  • Ug you know how much I hate the competition dates. I hate physical displays of who is the manliest. I did not like watching the boxing. AT ALL. I think what always makes these dates worse is when the Bachelorette keeps saying things like, “Oh! I didn’t know it was going to be like this! I feel so bad! I didn’t want anyone to get hurt!” Stop it. Remember when they made the one arm girl roller derby? Terrible.
  • Kaitlyn seems very genuine when she talks one-on-one with each guy. I like her more and more all the time.
  • Jared needs to shave. It’s so gross. He looks like a 14 year old boy who thinks he is growing a beard. It’s patchy and yucky.
  • I’m not into Justin. He wears a hemp necklace. Enough said.
  • Jared’s kiss with Kaitlyn was way better than Ben’s kiss.
  • The underwater date was fun. It was intimate, but not forced and weird. Fun.
  • Clint seems cool. I like him, but he’s pretty vanilla. I want to see more of his personality. Kaitlyn seemed comfortable and happy with him, but we haven’t heard him say much other than “ya. uh huh. for sure. yes.”
  • Amy Schumer is one of my favorites. She cracks me up. She was super funny tonight! Her conversation with JJ was making us both laugh out loud.
  • I really like Chris the dentist. He seems really sweet. I can’t wait to see more of him.
  • JJ isn’t going to make it very far. He’s a real jerk. Why can’t he just let Tony be? He’s mean. Also, their kiss was the worst kiss we’ve seen this season so far.
  • JJ GOT THE ROSE??? Insane. He’s the villain of the season and I think he deserves it.
  • I get that you feel the need to spill your entire life story in order to make sure you will get a rose, but sometimes the guys choose the wrong time. Watching Kaitlyn and Ian have his serious conversation while awkwardly holding hands in front of the house while standing up…yikes. Just save your story for a more personal time.
  • Kupah’s race comments made me uncomfortable. Uncool. Is that really the card you pull when you aren’t getting your way? Very uncool.
  • Kupah needs way, way too much validation. Send him home! When he was surprised to hear that she had felt a connection but no longer did I wanted to punch him. He wanted her to gush over him and when she didn’t he was shocked. Loser. I think he’s lacking in some self-confidence, probably because a girl has never told him no before. Now he’s backpedaling. No Kupah, you blew it.
  • I’m impressed at how decisive Kaitlyn seems to be. She is also more emotional than I thought she was.
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